your just a fucking show pony, arent you?!

epic fail at staying in on pete's birthday

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 21:02:58 GMT

so, i havent been eating properly - or at all half the time cos work and drinking beer got in the way... So i burnt myself out and got tonsilitis hell bad. Worse than ive had in years. So, i plan to stay in on a friday night cos im working 9 hours saturday instead of the usual friday. But what do i do? Everyone comes over for pre drinks and i go out. Get drunk, little messy, drink like a fish worse than usual and miss my 3am curfew i swore to my conscience. Then i miss the last nightrider and im with pete and nic. Its 6am, pete fills like a dive off the pier. So i go along. Gah. Why do i hate sleeping so much lately?! Its amusing how i used to need it so bad and now i can go to work, half baked on five minutes sleep and still go out afterwards when before i couldnt even muster the energy to go pee after five hours and getting home at a regular time. I am a total mess machine and im loving it. But mums gonna yell at me and im gonna get sicker again. I am an idiot.

amsterDAMN

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Sun, 07 Jun 2009 17:04:07 GMT

so im in amsterdam and its raining and im frikkin broke. whoopee!! me and pete arent talking to each other, hahah, thank motherfuck for that. hes such a douchebag. whatevz. hanging to get to london so i have touristy things to do, theres hardly anything here i wanna look out and i dont wanna get loaded by myself. had some space cake on tuesday and was SO paranoid it was not good. i was freaking out on the tram, but was keeping it to myself. i thought these people were gonna kill me. NEVER AGAIN. went on a hunt for shrooms on wednesday, asked this young stoned dude in a smart shop and hes like "theyre illegal, but i can get you some under the table for 30 euros, come back in ten minutes." so we walk round the corner, go into another shop and you actually can buy them and they cost 17 euros. dodgy mofo. he was probably just gonna go round the corner, buy them and make a profit of our ignorant tourist asses. fuck that. anyway. they really really fucked us, but we hardly hallucinated. we sat and watched ducks building a nest for like an hour, then went to the rather pretty park and giggled at this really dork kid on a bike and the joggers and shit. so wasnt the same as melbourne mushies.
we got drunk thursday night but i got waaaay too drunk and couldnt walk so we came home. after some dodgy black dude with bad hair and a cane tried to sell us cocaine which was washing powder and that hit pete with his cane when we said it was shit. i got a bit upset, i wanted to kill the douchebag. woke up on my birthday hungover as fuck and feeling sorry for myself.. didnt do anything really except eat kfc and wish i was in melbourne, with people i like rather than an asshole brother who has nothing to say for himself except negative comments on my awesomeness. fuck you, peter, you have no personality and you are boring as fuck. cant wait to get away from him.
we leave amsterdam on tuesday and then im seeing alexis on wednesday and were going to stonehenge on friday i think. im gonna book the rock n roll tour where you go see places the beatles lived and some dead guys house and stuff, seems a good way to spend some time.
facebook is being a cunt and wont let me upload photos, which is what i was doing as a timewaster cos fuck im bored. i know, i know, im in an amazing foreign country where i wont get the chance to come back for like ten years, but you know what? im bored of looking at wonky houses and not being able to read anything. and most things are shut today. god im a whinger.
thanks for listening, until laterz,
the man, the myth, the maverick,
howard moon.

london - random ramblings

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Sun, 03 May 2009 09:43:39 GMT

so weve been in london for a week. i love it. i wanna live here. its so pretty and old school and leafy and stuff. its rad. were off to norway at 6 in the morning tomorrow - ultra painful. had some crazy germans in our dorm and got drunk with them. was cool. got ripped off last night cos pete's an idiot. oh well. hope norway is cool. supposed to be there fora month but if its crap i will wanna bail straight away. go to amsterdam. were supposed to be going there for my bday oooh! went shopping and did lots of sight seeing - walked round for about 6 hours a day fucking killed the legs... got used to the tube pretty easy its not half as difficult as people say. thoguh its annoying having to catch 3 trains to places... miss having a dealer and my crew and my boy. schmeh. oh well.

zoo!!

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 07:13:36 GMT

i wen to the zoo today with kenny and it was lovely fun!
so nice and sunny.
i need a nap.

well well well

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Thu, 11 Sep 2008 00:43:17 GMT

so im blowing the dust off my livejournal. and updating whats happened in over a year..
so. i have the most beautiful boy ever. hes a retard. very special that one. haha. hesa called kenny and he rocks. hes 6 foot 2 so he makes me feel like a little kid cos he picks me up off the ground all the time. he makes me laugh. a lot. hes very silly. very rad. hes almost perfect for me!
life's pretty good. kinda boring, just going along well. i moved into my parents rather large new house in richmond to save money to go overseas. im going ok at the mo got 3 grand. which is more than ive ever saved in my life by about 3 times.
im getting my eyes lasered next week! holy shit. scary scary.
work is ok. my boss thinks im awesome which is cool. i dont really do that much except be an idit but everyone is rad to work with. i love my silly girls. and occasional boys.
well imwaiting for meredith tickets. hope i get some. doesnt look so good though..

bummer

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Fri, 08 Sep 2006 11:58:47 GMT

is this it? am all i ever gonna do is wait for something good to happen? work towards stuff that never ends up happening or i change my mind anyway. damn. that sucks.

wasted festival

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Mon, 04 Sep 2006 23:53:00 GMT

wasted festival was so fucking awesome. saw ktee. shes a hunk. i just ran around harrassing random men. owen from slick 46 and brandon who i actually dont know who introduced me to him.. but those two werecool. dooz's wrestling man chuck was funny as. charter were brilliant. no idea were rad and i have videos of dooz being mental in the pit. it was cool. i love being a tool.

im drunk

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Sat, 26 Aug 2006 10:43:49 GMT

im drunk.
and i won a backstreet boys tshirt on ebay.
oops.

old n new shit. boing boing

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Mon, 21 Aug 2006 03:15:12 GMT

I WROTE THIS IN 2003.. NOW THE UPDATED VERSION IN CAPITALS

I AM: the emylie, shugar plum fairee grrl - - EMILY THE FERAL..
I WANT: to be happy and in love again - - PAYDAY TO HURRY UP
I HAVE: a fat belly - - FURRY TEETH
I WISH: that the world was a better place for tards like me- - THAT I WAS A PUB MOLE AGAIN
I HATE: people judging me by what comes out of my mouth and what my outer shell is... - - NOT BEING A PUB MOLE
I MISS: being in love, lots of sex - - BEING A PUB MOLE, MY DOOZA
I FEAR: being the same person in 2 years - - NEVER HAVING WHAT I WANT
I HEAR: placebo and the door slamming - - THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT, MY BAD SINGING
I SEARCH: for a way to make my computer go faster - - FOR FUNNY THINGS
I WONDER: what actually makes you want to keep eating after you feel sick - - HOW I HAVEN'T DONE PERMANENT DAMAGE TO BODY AFTER DRINKING ALL THAT GOON
I REGRET: some things - - WASTING MY TIME
I LOVE: life at the moment. - - LITTLE DOOZA
I ACHE: for meaningful sex... - - FOR MORE SEX HAHAH
I ALWAYS: say the wrong thing - - SCARE PEOPLE WHEN IM HYPO
I AM NOT: a ditzy bitch! - - QUITE WHAT YOU EXPECTED
I DANCE: not enough!! i love it! go, kathy k, go! - - BADLY IN THE CAR
I SING: too much and out of tune - - NOT AS MUCH AS I USED TO
I CRY: over stupid things a lot... - - DITTO
I AM NOT ALWAYS: the happy, psycho person that everyone thinks. - - AS EMO AS I USED TO BE
I WRITE: songs that are crap, but make me feel better - - SCARY LOVE LETTERS THAT I DON’T GIVE TO HIM
I WIN: at nothing thats worthwhile - - ARGUMENTS
I LOSE: well, im a loser... - - MY MIND
I CONFUSE: everyone including myself - - LEFT AND RIGHT ALL THE TIME WHEN I GIVE DIRECTIONS
I NEED: to get a life and a better body - - SOME CASH
I SHOULD: start yoga again, but its too cold - - GET MY ASS INTO GEAR INSTEAD OF SITTING ON IT

yes or no...
x. you keep a diary: i used to, but now LJ is my diary... - - SPORADICALLY
x. you like to cook: fried rice that tastes like shit - - TOAST
x. you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: mmm hmmm all the time – PROBABLY NOT.
x. you believe in love: indeed i do. a bit too much to be normal - - YEAH.

The weirdest person you know: myself. - - DOOZ
the Loudest Person you Know: me. shanti sometimes. claire! - - NOY. FUCKING G-FORCE
the Sexiest Person you Know: Jeff Stickland, Felix Banquesio, Chris Quinto. – AHAHAHA. I KISSED ALL THOSE BOYS! GO ME. DOOZ IS HOTTER THAN THEM ALL THOUGH
Your closest friend: Debbie cos ive known her for so long. I clash with nicole a lot but i love her and i tell her lots. - - MANA
the People that Knows the Most about you: Debbie, Nicole – MANA

What is...?
your most overused phrase on IM: hhahaha... or hey – DON’T USE IT ANYMORE
the last image/thought you go to sleep with: craig nicholls or robert harvey (from the music) - - DOOZ…
Inside joke: "ahhh wow, you were my first kiss" "youripadeez" - - AHAHAHA. I HAVE LOTS OF INSIDE JOKES WITH DOOZ

Do You...?
have a(any) crush(es): uh-huh! – MYSELF.
want to get married: hell no – SHIT YEAH. LAS VEGAS STYLE.
get motion sickness: when i have a hangover and i havent eaten... – NOT REALLY.
think you're a health freak: uh, yeh. does this belly look like im healthy? no. – CIGGIES AND COKE ARE GOOD FOR YOU
get along with your parents: not at all. – YEAH.
like thunderstorms: i hear the rain dripping all night in my caravan and cant get to sleep, so no... – YEAH, THEY MAKE ME LAUGH.
SIGN: Gemini – HASN’T CHANGED
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: dark brown - DITTO
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: black – BLACK WITH RED BITS
EYE COLOR: greenish - DITTO
BIRTHPLACE: croydon - DITTO

( FAVORITES )
NUMBER: 5 - SAME
COLOR: orange, pink - SAME
DAY: Friday - SAME
MONTH. December - SAME
SONG: at the mo its the ataris - boys of summer and sean paul - get busy!! such a teenybopper! – DEAR LOVER – SOCIAL D
FOOD: chippies - SAME
SEASON: summer, without a doubt. - SAME
SPORT: sex - HAHA
DRINK: vodka – CRACKLING PEACH

( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
CRIED? no, for a change – NO.
HELPED SOMEONE? I helped bridie with shopping.... – NOT REALLY
BOUGHT SOMETHING? yeah! my ball outfit! - CIGGIES
GOTTEN SICK? Nupp - NAH
GONE TO THE MOVIES? nope i hardly ever go... someone take me!! - NOPE
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? nah, went out for lunch, though! - NO
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? yeah probly - YEH
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? Nope – NO.
TALKED TO AN EX? nah. not in 2 weeks – NOT IN…. A YEAR…
MISSED AN EX? yeah, a lot of the time. but i know i dont miss HIM.. i miss the feelings of being with him... hard to explain... – I SEEM TO BE THINKING ABOUT MITCH A BIT LATELY AGAIN… UH-OH.
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? uh, yeah... – RIGHT NOW.
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? Yeah – PROBABLY
MISSED SOMEONE? i always find someone to miss..!! – I WONT SEE MY BOY FOR A FEW DAYS :(
HUGGED SOMEONE? yeah, my mum. its her bday. – IT'S MUM’S BDAY AGAIN TODAY. AND I HUGGED DOOZ TOO
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? yeah. – NOPE.
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? i dont think so... – IT'S ONLY EARLY

name 5 bands you listen to:
- the ataris – THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT
-QOTSA – SOCIAL D
-deftones – SAHARA HOT NIGHTS
- the vines – COHEED & CAMBRIA
-the music – VELVET REVOLVER

name 7 things you hate:
- fake people - DITTO
- fake flowers - BARNEY
- people who pretend to not know whats going on - DITTO
- liars - DITTO
- lack of cash – DITTO DITTO DITTO
- my car at the moment.. – BEING SAD
- my parents. – BEING UNABLE TO GET MAGGOTTED

mr bounce is here to stay

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Mon, 21 Aug 2006 02:45:36 GMT

yep. thats the new boy. hes on my left arm, in all the jiggly brilliance. i got rob to do it and yeah it was cool to catch up with him and stuff. he tattooed lance the other week and said that lance squealed more than me. hhaha. i only squealed twice. it was pretty good, waaaaaaaaaaaaay better than the last one on my ankle, i think thats the reason i waited so long to get another one. but i cant wait for my next one. im gonna have sleeves now, i decided. i think ill get a smurf next. hahaha. smurfette? perhaps. dunno. i got a few random things i want on there.. not working much this week which is kinda gay cos i want cash and i get bored... im trying to organise my ass and figure out what i need and get a real budget into gear for england next year. im thinking of fucking off in april. me and dooz would have been together for a year and a half, if were still together.. in 2 weeks i met him a year ago. woah thats crazy. hes pretty. i took him to deans marsh and he thought it was retarded as. which it is. we went to the shop and the skate park, woo mad shit.

just kickin back

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Tue, 08 Aug 2006 03:44:15 GMT

coheed and cambria are cute. im just farting round singing too loud and being a little snotty.. my belly hurts. im not gonna do journalism next year cos i decided 3 years is way too long for me to commit to. hehehe. i want this house i saw today. mm hmmm. im gonna fucking get it dude. nah. i doubt it. i wont ever get a fucking house. ill have to live in footscray with dooz and peanut and handie and get my ass pummelled in the wee hours of the morning. o yeah. i almost lost my ass virginity. hehe. fuck that hurt. hahahahahaha. the guy at centrelink cracked onto me again. hes weird as. i said i made 800 bucks and theyre still paying me. thats fucked up. but i kinda like it. hehehe. im going off the pill so i can be a dirty pub mole again and stop wigging out and being all hibernation cos ive been fucked since march and thats 5 months and thats more than half me and dale's relationship and i feel guilty that im the headcase and im fuckin round with his little puny mind. bah. i just wanna be maggotty and get annoyed when i have to leave pony at 7. hahaha.

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Mon, 07 Aug 2006 02:52:26 GMT

i hate trying to find houses. its crap. i dont want to live in a shoe box or pay $500 a week. ahrrgggg. hha. i looked at houses in colac just for a giggle and there is so many for so cheap like 150 for 3 bedrooms. hehe.

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i feel warm and fuzzy today.

piccoos

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Sun, 06 Aug 2006 11:03:49 GMT

so i got a hotel room for me n dooz to chill on saturday night. it was pretty cute, we just hung out all maggotty and had so much sex im surprised im alive. hehehe. didnt know the ferret had it in him. hehehe.

mmm mmm mmm very delish. noy's ass..

handie is a stud muffin.

being all myspace and off my chops

dooz being all studly. note the pink undies on the bonnet hhehe

at our hotel, dooz climbed into the little hole thingie.. clever boy.

us being gay

maggot central. love em.

dooz's new fluoro pink-red hair. noice.

more piccies

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Sat, 22 Jul 2006 12:38:20 GMT

this is the mouldy pizza i forgot was hidden next to my couch... pretty gross. it was there for 2 weeks i think... hehehehe

gettin some love

maggotted at the resignators and mr coffee at the espy last week

heheh. before or after the tequila??

pretty drunken piccie. i liked lights.

haha. what a trashbag. i love kara.

my old housee. bye bye!

this dude was passed out on the tram and me and mana kept laughing at him. his head was swinging round wildly every now and then. hahaha. he looks like he has no head.

the search is on

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Mon, 10 Jul 2006 06:26:21 GMT

so im looking for a house and a car and im starting a new job so everthing's gonna be all freshness around here. except for the stale boyfriend. ah. he cut his mohawk again just as his hair was getting long. and he looks like a nazi again. im so unimpressed. so so unimpressed. just when he was getting pretty again. but i have to quit smoking when i move in with my parents again in-between houses. aaaaaaaaaah. i havent even started to quit its shit...
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i got wasted with kara on friday which was funny as. shes a trashy little girl, we drank a whole goonbag between us without even noticing, but i was waaaaaaay fucked. and i went home pretty early, caught the last tram back to the city then walked home in the fucking torrential rain. which sucked but yeah... kara and snoph got kicked out of the espy hahhah. trashbags.
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i love coming to my parents place to eat all their food. im gonna get all fat again. dammit.

piccies n shizen

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Thu, 06 Jul 2006 04:44:27 GMT

piccies from alice..

zayd n dooz being bumchums at pony

i didnt remember this photo being taken. im shitfaced, at cherry, being... me.

hehehe. yeah go the brown paper bag.

piccies

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Tue, 27 Jun 2006 08:25:55 GMT

heres some pix and shit from the last couple o months. my 21st n shit.

me being a dickhead in dads dressing gown. i just wanted to put his dressing gown on myspace. its the shit.

pnut is sexy in a school uniform

noy.... no explanation needed

noy being FUCKING SCARY in the wee hours of the morning

me n kara being wasted in the bathroom

little dooza being a punk rock cunt

feel the love

handie attacked dooz with a permanent marker. hahaha. handie went to the bottle-o with a drawn on moustache on hehe.

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Tue, 27 Jun 2006 06:46:55 GMT

i had the best sex ever on the weekend. o yeh

boredoms got the better of me

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Thu, 22 Jun 2006 06:19:16 GMT

A is for age:] 21

[B is for booze of choice:] crackling peach or cruiser ice

[C is for career:] im lost

[D is for your dad's name:] peter

[E is for essential items to bring to a party:] peach n goey

[F is for favourite song at the moment:] butterfly effect - run

[G is for favourite game:] nude wrestling

[H is for hometown:] brunswick

[I is for instruments you play:] skin flute

[J is for jam or jelly you like:] raspberry

[K is for kids?] i want two. ive gotten all clucky. its weird.

[L is for living arrangements:] being evicted again

[M is for mom's name:] gail

[N is for name of your crush :] dale/dooz

[O is for overnight hospital stays:] none.

[P is for phobias:] needles and being this pathetic forever

[Q is for quotes you like:] lots and lots.

[R is for relationship that lasted the longest:] the one right now. 8 months pretty much

[S is for sexual preference:] runty punk rock ferrets

[T is for time you wake up:] when i feel like it

[U is for underwear:] cartoon character jocks all the way

[V is for vegetable you love:] couch potato

[W is for worst habit:] picking my nose. grabbing dooz's tiny hiney

[X is for x-rays you've had:] broken arm

[Y is for yummy food you make:] i make killer fried rice and vegemite toast

[Z is for zodiac sign:] gemini.

uh back to square one

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Thu, 22 Jun 2006 05:21:49 GMT

so now i dont have a job and i got kicked out of my house again. ah. the saga continues....

they dont love you like i love you

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Tue, 25 Apr 2006 07:41:51 GMT

i got a job yesterday. yeeeh. being a dole bludger is good to catch up on sleep and read books but other than that it sucks major balls. i forgot just how poor you can be. im working as a cafe bitch on queensberry st at the red capsicum cafe. oh yeh.
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had a rather bizarre weekend. i hadnt been out in nearly a month so i got fucking shitfaced, blurry-eyed pissed and then crossed-eyed munted. hehehehe. watched hooligans and acted like hooligans. found tristan went to bang. werent let in cos it was too late. went to cherry. went to pony. then i went home cos i was shivering and not up for the crap... peh. schmeh. had a good night though. haha.

random time wasting shizzen

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Thu, 06 Apr 2006 03:33:21 GMT

1. First thing you did this morning?
feel up a cute boy

2. Last thing you ate?
soggy foccaccia that sucked ass

3. Is your cell phone a piece of crap?
fuck yeah its prehistoric i love it

4. What's something you're looking forward to most in the next 6 months?
ummm. turning 21 i guess... hopefully getting a car. i miss having wheels

5. What's annoying you right now?
having no car. being a poor poor cunt. feeling like shit.

6. What's the last movie you saw in a theater?
hostel

7. Do you believe in long distance relationships?
not for too long

9. Is there someone you miss?
all the time.

10. Who was the last person you texted?
ummm... sars?

11. If you could kill someone who would you kill?
ha. hahahahaha. im going to kill someone next week

12. Song that sums up your life?
loser - beck. hahahahaha

13. Are there a few things you wish you were better at?
shit yeah. i suck at everything

14. If you could be anywhere this second, where would it be?
in a warm toasty bath

15. What's your most vivid memory from 8th grade?
ummmm...... fuck no idea.

16. Latest Addiction?
no new ones i dont think...

17. Have you ever had the urge to kill someone?
yeh

18. How many people would you say you are interested in?
im interested in everyone. romantically.... just one.

19. What do you love doing?
losing my braincells. talking the head off a bull

20. Do you think someone thinks about you daily?
yeah. i think a blondie might.

21. Who was the last person you saw or talked to?
mum

22. What do you want to be when you grow up?
mature and responsible. farrrrk whats happened to me.

well well well

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Fri, 24 Mar 2006 09:36:31 GMT

so in the last couple of weeks, i have gotten bird flu (or something similar.. haha) ive seen coheed and cambria, weve broken up, gotten back together, ive kissed another boy, ive cried, he's cried, we've faught, we've had an awesome munted day and yeah....
))))
all week ive been delirious then yesterday i vomited all day and then went to coheed feeling shitty. they were ok. would have been waaaaay better if i had have felt like myself... but yeah, damn that guy has some hair. cant be bothered writing hte usual 8000+ words with so much detail like usual...
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i kissed another dude called adam at pony the other week cos dooz made me cry. pathetic i know, but i had to kinda figure out if it was right or not. it felt wrong, i felt like a hussy and i cried. i told him last weekend and he got a bit upset but i think he feels better that now we've both fucked up.
((
last saturday we didnt sleep and just got messy and talked the head off a bull all day, making out and being like we used to before all this shitty angst.
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i walked out on him the other day cos he made me so angry. then he decided to say that i had made him angry. pfft. wanker. haha.

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im devastated. i lost my camera at pony last week. dammit dammit dammit. that thing was my favourite toy. well... my only toy really.
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but i got more piccies from ages ago anyway. they're on my myspace page in my blog, cos thats where all my shit goes now. lj is so 2003... hahaha. i am getting lamer by the hour. weeeeeeeeeee weee

pre-munt

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Fri, 03 Mar 2006 02:53:26 GMT

happy bday doozy boy!!

so yeah. dooz is 22 today. shenanigans a-plenty tonite...
im leaving work early to buy him his pressie.
which is gonna be a crackpipe..
well, thats what he ordered.
im gonna get him something else..
i saw an arnold schwarzenegger colouring in book yesterday in polyester. too too funny. but ridiculously $25.
hmmm wooooo. 2 hours before i fuck off.
hahah
i have a headache and it hurts...
:(

dragged to next

shugarplumfaireegrrl@hotmail.com — Thu, 09 Feb 2006 23:22:58 GMT

so last night i was in my pj's, getting ready to nap when mel told me she was coming round so i could cheer her up. that was cool, but she ended up saying the word biccie and i was dragged out to next. it was all right but my biccie wasnt working so we left at about 12.30... after about half an hour of being in bed, i started pinging really hard and couldnt sleep til about 4.... it was funny as. ive had about 4 hours sleep cos i slept in and turned my alarm off in my sleep. i told dooz to give me a wake up call at 7.. he called me at 8 and i was dead. loved it. hahaha. i feel awesome right now considering. punk drunk love on syn fm turns me on. good way to start the morning. im struggling to eat my choccie muffin. i dont want to but my guts is so empty. my V was rad this morning. a nice caffeine kick in the anus..
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seeing mell all upset about tristan has made me so glad im still with my boy. cos even though were fighting so much lately, i know that if we broke up it would probably kill me. idont know about doozy, i hope it would make him feel something... i dont know sometimes. ive realised that my relationships only work when i feel like i love them more than they love me. if i feel like they love me more than i love them, i completely abuse them. fucked up, hey? ah well. what can i do, im a spoilt little brat with issues. everyone seems to come to me with their boy dramas.... why?! i dont have a fucking clue!! i guess im a good shoulder to cry on or something, and i can usually make anyone feel better about whats wrong, cos i just try to let them get everything out and then smack them on the ass and make them forget it for a little while...
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cant wait for saturday. yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh. love it.